Throwing up

After the infamous video of Regina Duarte in Bolsonaro's arms thanking him for the São Paulo Cinematheque, as if it were a film club, to be near her children and grandchildren, I felt incredibly discouraged. I went to vomit a little and sat down to write an angry text as if it would improve my state. We'll see.

How long will the military tolerate a government that is dragging what little dignity remains to the troops into the dustbin of history? How long will a brigadier general accept being Minister of Health to implement the sale and distribution of chloroquine, which we know doesn't work against the coronavirus? How long will businessmen think that some golden dog will emerge from this mess to justify all the humiliation and suffering we are going through? How long will judges and lawyers silently accept (some are already complaining) all this violation of the laws that the government is promoting? How long will the Supreme Court justices close their eyes to the pages of the constitution being torn up by the government? How long will parliamentarians pretend to work and continue swallowing Bolsonaro's nonsense? How long will they continue to postpone the impeachment request or even the interdiction? How long will this small part of the artistic class continue to commit suicide, endorsing this government that literally walks and walks away from culture? 

The poor, Black people, the elderly, women, artists, and homosexuals are of no interest to these people whatsoever; quite the opposite. And if we think about it, a good part of the middle class that elected this fascist, directly or indirectly, also thinks this way but doesn't have the courage to say so. Bolsonaro isn't fooling anyone. We already knew who he was even before the campaign, since he started appearing on the Brazilian political scene. Don't tell me now that you were fooled. You're either stupid, distracted, or you had very clear interests. Just being against the PT doesn't justify such violence against the country. It was obvious. You'll have to work through this guilt so that later, together with all of us, you can try to change this story. Felipe Netto's example is clear and compelling. He had courage. I hope everyone else will too.

Watching Regina Duarte today was symbolic. It seems there's another country, one we're not a part of, celebrating the end of culture, or rather, the end of times. Regina embraces Bolsonaro, demonstrating a passion that goes from their hearts to their brains, passing only through our stomachs. That's why we vomit. We watch and can't even change the channel, go to the streets, or start shouting. The pots and pans are dented from being banged so much. Perhaps we will never again be part of this world as we know it. I don't know what will be left for us besides indignation.

Now, in this time of isolation, it is up to the institutions, even if through live streams and posts, to exercise democratic oversight of the country. If they allow this chaotic situation (with apologies to the chaotic) to become the Brazilian political environment, we will literally be without father or mother.

Wake up! It's impossible that you don't realize your own lives are threatened. If they don't value culture, why would they value justice, Congress, and democracy?

I'm going to keep ranting here. My mood hasn't improved, but at least I got my anger out after vomiting. I feel ashamed for those people and for all of us.